The Life and Times of Theodore Sidle - Proud G33K, undeserving husband to a hottie, amateur foodie, drawer and doodler, professional procrastinator, reader, movie critic, music lover, Ubuntu and Android user, sugar gliders' human-tree and wanna-be webcomic artist.
Just finished watching Indie Game. I'm kind of annoyed. I was hoping it was a "making of..." type movie that would go into art design and development and coding on a small developer scale. Nope... nothing like that. It was all angsty "I'm so fucking sad, this game will never get made" and "I'm so fucking sad because we made the game" and a bunch of other feelsy bullshit. Oh, I'm so sad that I'm going through rough shit because I'm doing what I've always wanted to do and it's really fucking hard. Really? Shut. The. Fuck. Up. Also, I had some realizations:
1) If some kid today were to watch the shitty 80s Nick Cage movie, Valley Girl, they wouldn't notice anything weird or stupid about the way Deborah Foreman speaks. Does everyone speak that way now? Oh, wait... I should have said, "Is like everyone like that now? They're all like, 'And I was like' and then 'At first it was like this and then, like, it was like that.'" Fucking seriously? If someone took the time to take each occurance of the word 'like' out of that movie, it would have been ten minutes long.
2) I don't understand how someone can be depressed that they're working so hard on their dream (and getting the fucking CHANCE to work on their dream!) and then be so depressed that other people are excited about their dream, and THEN be depressed about it afterwards. One of them said, "If I don't finish this game, I'm going to kill myself." Seriously? Go ahead and fucking kill yourself then, dude. It doesn't really matter if you do something difficult or worthwhile if you're going to be sad if you don't finish it and you're ALSO going to be sad if you do finish it!
3) It's been a long time since I really followed gaming in general. I hadn't heard of a single one of those games. Now I'm annoyed that they were all X-Box games. I'd really like to buy Super Meat Boy and Braid, but alas they were only X-Box games. I just looked it up, and now I see that they are or are about to be on Steam, too. That works for me.
4) Fuck Phil Fish and his stupid fucking Cameron moment. Sucks that his game kept crashing during PAX, but that's why you test software. Maybe if he hadn't focused so much on how the little pixels looked and worked on the actual gameplay... Hmm. Make the game first. Fix the game first. Then worry about the stupid little shit. That's plain common fucking sense. Did it ever even get released? Looking it up just now, I see that he finally did release the game. Good on him. Still, fuck that guy.
Sidenote: I think listening to these guys whine and bitch and moan about how hard it was to live their fucking dreams and make what they wanted instead of working a regular nine-to-five or worse, have to look for a job, made my wife depressed. Thanks, fuckers.
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We'll be moving soon, and the new place has bigger bedrooms but a smaller living room and kitchen. Some things must go. My high-end, very nice Lemond G-Force RT recumbent bike is one of the things that must go. Hopefully, the sale of this will help with the cost of moving!
I figured something out about myself recently. It annoyed me and made me sad at the same time, but I'm glad I actually put it into words.
I only draw when I'm bored.
If there's something interesting to do, I don't draw. Even if I want to or if I have an idea for something, I just don't. If I can find something on TV (and with Netflix I can _ALWAYS_ find something) or if I can find something interesting on the internets or if I have a game to play, a book to read... anything else. The only time I draw is when I have absolutely nothing else to do. Or maybe if I've gotten bored with all the other options.
And that sucks. But I have realized I cannot change that about myself.
I've been wanting to do webcomics for a while. I have ideas about things to draw all the time. I just don't take the time to do them. I've bought a drawing desk, an oversized scanner and an oversized printer I don't even use. I keep thinking that if I have that one other thing then I'll draw.
I used to draw all the time when I was a kid, and I couldn't figure out what changed. Then I realized... I was fucking bored all the time when I was a kid. The other students at school were slow. I only had four TV stations. We only rented movies on weekends. The radio sucked. And I lived in a podunk rural shit town too far from any other kids to play with... so I played piano and drew. And if I was ever going to seriously draw again, I'd have to get rid of all the other fun, cool things I like doing instead of drawing.
Yeah, it's been a while. I didn't realize it had been three months since I posted something here. After doing the last Skyrim webcomic I just haven't been feeling the desire to draw much. I was stressing out. I lost my last job back in November. (I keep meaning to write down that story.) I've been unemployed for almost eight months. That's not a good thing.
I've already burned through my savings. Unemployment benefits don't cover much. It's been getting to the point where I've been using credit cards to pay for things I shouldn't have. I've been looking at the 401k... wondering if it's time to tap that, too. I haven't yet.
I don't mean to sound like it's been the end of the world. It's not like that at all. It has been stressful going on interviews, getting all excited about a job I think I'm going to get... and then not getting it. That's happened several times. It'll be down to me and a couple of other people. I get second interviews, and then I found out they went with someone else. Or worse, most of these companies never bother to call back at all. I guess I'm supposed to assume after a week or three that I just didn't get the job. That has been a very unfun emotional rollercoaster. And it's something else I've been meaning to write about but never got around to.
Yesterday I got a call from a headhunter agency. I've talked to them dozens of times, and I've went on interviews for them a few times. This time they had a job for me that won't require yet another interview! I'm going downtown and starting work tomorrow!
Now I'm a bit nervous because it's been eight months since I've done any desktop support. I'm feeling very, very rusty. I don't really know anything about this job yet. I think I'll be a part of a small team that are all employed by the headhunter agency. I just spent the last couple of hours updating my USB flash drive with all my desktop support tools.
I do plan on writing and posting a lot more soon. My loyal sidekick has me working on another webcomic project, and I actually have some new art to post soon. It's about time for the next movies list. I've been to a few more cheeseburger joints, and I need to write those reviews. Now that I'm working again, I won't feel like everything besides looking for a job is a waste of time! It already feels like a major relief.
Okay, I finished it. I'm getting closer and closer to the professional look I want. So close I can taste it... I still need to streamline the process a bit. Soon...
Anyway, here's the finished version of the new shout, IIZ SLEN NUS which is the Ice Form shout. For those of you that don't play Skyrim, it encases your target in ice.
Feel free to NOT leave any feedback. I've been getting plenty of feedback on my DeviantArt gallery and my Facebook profile. I think only one of these strips has had any feedback on my actual blog. Good thing this isn't the only place I'm depending on feedback! If so, I'd probably have given up already. Also, don't forget you can click on the comic to see it full size. The blog software sizes it down a bit.
Game tip: Do NOT use this shout against a Frost Atronach. Or do... just to see what happens. But save your game first.
I meant to have this up last week, but I didn't finish the ink. Then I put it off 'til this week... but I didn't get around to doing the lettering until today. Just finished scanning it and putting it together, but it's about bed time. So here... sorry, it's not finished. Do I get partial credit?